About a week ago I was having lunch with a great friend, the kind of friend who's a rock in my life, the kind of person I think can move mountains if she needs to, and she asked me "how long are going to give yourself to see if this new entrepreneurial project works out? Do you know what your back up will be if it doesn't work out"? For the first time in my life my faith in myself and with this project is so strong that up to that point I hadn't even considered the possibility that it wouldn't work. I'm giving myself a financial runway to get this moving, but in this case failure isn't an option. The only thing I'd consider is how long will it take the momentum of the business to catch up financially to where I need it to be? I will not go back to corporate america unless it's for a really good reason and the only good reason I can think of is that someone in corporate America decides they are going to pay me for what I'm planning on doing. I'm 100% certain I can and will do this successfully. Have you ever felt that way about anything?
My friend is looking out for me, and she's putting voice to her fears for me and that's ok, I know she cares deeply and doesn't want me in any kind of trouble. But I recognize it's FEAR talking. I have moments of self doubt, but I counter those by controlling what I can control. When I feel the self doubt creeping in or when someone else's doubt of me creeps into my head I stop and recognize that's fear trying to steer me off course and then I remind myself of the work I'm putting in and focus on that. The biggest failure here would be to not try because of the fear. I've spent the last 11 years staying stuck because I didn't want to get messy. I won't let myself stay stuck for another moment, it's time to lean into the fear so that i can break through it.
I won't move into this new world, new phase of life thinking it's not going to work and what am I going to do if it doesn't. I recognize it might not work out like I planned it, but I know it's going to work out.
Where do you feel the fear? Are there places in your life that you feel like you're staying stuck because of fear? What would it take for you to lean into the fear?
Maybe it was the sleep deprivation, or the dehydration for that matter, but on the short rickshaw ride in I had the comforting sense that I was powerless, it felt like someone was whispering in my ear "if you want to enjoy this trip treat it like a rickshaw ride, don't hold on too tightly. Let it all unfold naturally or you'll miss the magic".
"Risking everything for this new life I’ve chosen is a daily practice in living wholeheartedly in spite of fear. By choosing the risks of living an unconventional life, I’m hoping the reward will be an extraordinary one."
"I have a moment every day where I'll be walking downtown to a meeting, or making a pot of coffee or writing a blog post or planning a goal for the month and a feeling of complete happiness will wash over me."
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I find it difficult to believe this is actually happening, but it’s my last week of work in corporate America, my last week with the steady paycheck I’ve grown comfortably accustom to. I’m a healthy dose of terrified mixed with excited beyond measure
It’s one thing to dream about something, but the reality of doing it is another thing entirely. Dreaming is fun. My heart likes to dream, but my brain is anxious and fearful, it seems to have a direct line to the reptilian DNA and thinks about the numbers and the horrible outcomes.
Are you looking for more meaning in this one big beautiful life of yours? Are you certain that you’re supposed to be doing something that makes a difference in this world but you’re not quite sure what?
These trees reminded me that destruction isn't always bad, it is often that after you burn it all down you've created space for new ideas and new growth. Clearing can be a form of creating if you can be comfortable in the chaos and destruction.
I've got 15 days total and 10 actual work days after today and I'll be a free woman. Sovereignty is a core value of mine and I'm not sure I've ever had it.
When I feel the self doubt creeping in I stop and recognize that's fear trying to steer me off course. The biggest failure here would be to not even try because of the fear.