Meaningful Monday: 07.01.13

Fear Happy Monday My Dears,

last week was tumultuous for sure.  Saturday when I read chapter 7 in "The Artist's Way" I was astounded with the synchronicity of the topic. "Recovering a sense of Connection" It also touched on Jealousy which I was feeling a lot of last week.

I want to share this passage from "The Artist's Way"

"Jealousy is always a mask for fear: fear that we aren't able to get what we want; frustration that somebody else seems to be getting what is rightfully ours even if we are too frightened to reach for it.  At its root, jealousy is a stinging emotion.  It doesn't allow for the abundance and multiplicity of the universe.  Jealousy tells us there is room for only one-- one poet, one painter, one whatever you dream of being. 

The truth, revealed by action in the direction of our dreams, is that there is room for all of us.  But jealousy produces tunnel vision.  It Narrows our ability to see things in perspective.  It strips us of the ability to see other options.  The biggest lie that jealousy tells us is that we have no choice but to be jealous.  Perversely, jealousy strips us of our will to act when action holds the key to our freedom". -Julia Cameron

Don't be afraid to acknowledge your feelings.  I've been embarrassed by my feelings of jealousy in the past.  I pushed them away, I stuffed them down deep, I thought they were bad and ugly, that I was the one being ridiculous or unreasonable, but maybe I made them worse by not acknowledging them.  I might have missed what was actually the truth sitting in front of me by not letting those feelings bubble up.  By acknowledging what you feel you can address it, work (it is certainly hard work) past it and you can get to the heart of the truth.

I hope that these words will help you on your journey.

A week of no reading 06.09.13

Color wheel I painted last night with shitty cheap water colors... What did I say?

Yes, you read that right, a week of no reading.....

I'm on week four of the artist's way and this week in addition to writing my morning pages and going on my weekly artist date I'm not supposed to read.  I'm going to take this in the spirit that the assignment was given.  The idea is that artists love to consume other people's art.  We love to read and fill up our time and if we are blocked we devour other people's work so that we can stay blocked and not create ourselves.  hmmnnnn, I see where this could be a helpful assignment.


This week I'm going to stay off the face book feed, I'll check messages and post for the studio, and I'll blog. I'll check e-mails and do work, but I'm going to try to abide by the rules and see what happens.

Yesterday I was in the artistic mood so I chucked all my plans and spent the day art journaling, and playing with water-color paints.  It was fantastic!  Before I went to bed I checked face book one last time knowing that I'd miss it.

This morning I rolled over in bed and had the urge to reach for my ipad to check e-mail and my facebook feed as I do every morning, but I resisted.  Instead I threw the covers off, let max out and made a pot of french press coffee and got right down to work on my morning pages.  I did have to resist the urge to open the ipad and mindlessly start scrolling.  I suppose this is what you'd call the withdrawal period.

When I went to the studio to teach my sunday morning class as I was waiting for students I'd normally distract myself by playing on the internet or read a book on my ipad.  I spend a lot of time waiting for students to get to the studio and this week I won't have my normal crutch, my normal distractions.  I'll have to embrace each moment, either by just being present with myself or by creating something myself. I can't just consume other people's content this week.

My newest set of cheap art supplies

As I write this I know that you are reading my blog, so the irony is not lost on me, but hey I'm creating right?  And you can be too, or maybe you are inspired by my words (I always hope I'm inspiring you!).  I'm also teaching The Artist's Way at the studio starting in September so if you are intrigued sign up to join us!

I won't be doing this for more than the assigned week.  I love my social media, even though I imagine this week will be challenging, it actually is a very welcomed break.  I'm interested to see what I do when I'd normally be checking out or consuming.  I'm already struck by how it forces me to be more present, I can't just check out with a good book (as much as I'd love to).  The point is for me to create more. I'll let you know if I can make that happen.

My favorite pages thus far...

Do you think you could do a whole week of no reading?  I can't wait to hear your thoughts.

-Lish xoxoxoxo